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Its been an easy day. :)
woke up over looking english bay with the mountains all bright. There was a bit of rain, however, it was all good. I didn't get alot of sleep, however, that wasn't my fault. Girls like to keep boys up at night and then say that its the boy that kept them up. shrugs, no worries.
so tonight, three steaks on the bbq, and of course, movies, mikey and his brother, and prolly melissa or teresa will drop by later on. Already spoke to the zac-meister and he's out already, some pub somewhere, doing something... heh, its all good for me :)
and well, i found out today at work that I'm the lead on the Coldfusion endevour we're moving toward. Somehow we managed to garner all the clients of Radiant, which somehow got shuffled in the sale, and since i'm the only coldfusion server administrator and developer on staff then yay, i get to lead on all those gigs :D so of course, i get another new server to play with... heh
and i'm ordering a new web and database server. Cuz well, i'm going to use that big fattee that has done so much work over the years, as my personal home computer... gonna need a new sound and vid card though... but it'll go great with that 48 inch TV :D
AND, i get to go for training on Level software, cuz i'm teh only dude inhouse that has any experience with enterprise CMS/CRM integrated systems, as well as sharepoint and greatplains :)
yup yup, that raise is only a matter of days off now :D who gets a raise for 10$/hour folks??? who? me that's who :D cuz i am just too smart for my own good... yup yup, its true.
as for the women, well i'll decide if i even want a girlfriend when i decide. the last one didn't go so well, and I don't think i'm into being used like that again for awhile. after all, who wants to be something to pass the time till boredom sets in? or till someone that they're actually interested pays attention to them?
k, so that's what i learned about settling... brrrrr, not doing that again...
so then, as everything that i deserve has been restored to me, i can sit back and coast :) enjoy the ride, and since i've totally turned my back on the entire cambie dime bag crowd with all their deluded ego's, as well as the chicks that go there :) my life has been restored to normal.
Going to church on Sunday :D i can't believe the pastor actually apologized to me and said i was right!! I guess God is humbling everyone around me that had to get their ego and selfish ambitions trashed first!
isn't it amazing God? when people are totally dishonest with me, or use me, even though i don't see it, you see it, and you take everything that they have away from them, and only a few people manage to be humble enough to get it restored to them... amazing really, i will always love you :D I forgive them, and you let them destroy themselves, by themselves...
oh well, c'est la vie.
now the only thing that has to happen pappa is kevin. He has to move now. He needs to move somewhere else, so that last acursed thing can be replaced by what you have decided. By your will, and your strength, i ask you in Jesus name; to move Kevin out, and move in someone that serves you. He mocks you openly and well, he is far to arrogant and proud to admit error or wrong to anyone; he after all knows everything doesn't he? prolly why his g/f and kid left him.... i suppose, maybe, probably...
Amen!! ty for hearing and fulfilling that prayer Pappa.
as for jaynie. well, i did hurt her pretty good, and she hurt me pretty good, and we actually would've been fine if we had just been able to lean on each other for trust sake, and faith through you; and I don't wish her ill at all, and I'm glad that she's getting away from those idiots at moores. And I'm grateful to you that you showed her that her friends, those people she thought were friends had nothing to do with you, and didn't even love her. Even her best friend, that allie chick... i wonder how long it'll be for jaynie to learn that? oh well, she'll get hurt a ton more times by allie before she realizes that there wasn't ever a friendship there at all from the beginning.
and i hope lord that you'll teach her the real you, not this silliness about sexual orientation indifference, or loose morals, or self indulgences. but the real you. the one that teaches us to give without remorse, expectation, or need. and to ask and need nothing. teach her that dead once is dead always, that there no rediculious notions of past lives, or any of that silly blinded lying that satan has used to fool so many people.
the world isn't here long, and she's nice enough, deep enough down that she deserves to see you lord. and then we'll be friends without all the silliness that this world has to offer. truth for truth and love sake. :)
caio.
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