so what is that all about? -
hello hello there james my journal counterpart :)
K. So that was good to get out of the way. prayer is such an easy thing to do. You know pappa? i've always wondered why people put on this false spirituality in order to make themselves seem more intune, and pious.
You've never been like that, and well, most of whom have served you, have been major pains in the establishments hiney's. Going all the way back to the first written patriarchs and prophets. All of em just rattled everyone's cages and were totally hated, hunted and in some cases murdered for doing the one thing that everyone says they want. Telling the truth.
I've always found it entirely amusing that what people say they want and what people can actually stomach have very little to do with each other.
" I want an honest loving caring person" yeah uh huh, sure you do. An honest person will tell you that they think you look fat in that dress; if they think that you look fat in that dress. It doesn't mean that you're fat in that dress; it just means that is what they think. At the same token, most would rather that they said, oh no honey you look stunning; so that if they themselves think that they look fat in that dress; they can be assured that it's all in their minds, and avoid it for another day.
If you ask me? I'll tell you what i think. Cuz that is what honesty is.
And love? sometimes love is saying something to banally and gutterly honest that the feelings get hurt; however, loving in return is the knowledge that the person asked didn't tell you to hurt you and loved you enough to be honest, and loved you enough to be forthright.
of course; we are a society which lives and dwells in the land of denial; refusing to accept our own faults as we measure the exteriors of others around us - and still simultaneously; claim to not be shallow.
If you have ever made a commentary about what someone is wearing. you're shallow.
If you've ever made a commentary about someone and didn't know them at all, you're shallow.
if you participate in general jesting about another person, either in their absence, or with other folks for the sake of comedy, then you're shallow.
and the irony of it is this....
we've ALL done it.
every one of us.
no exceptions.
We've all lied.
We've all been dishonest.
We've all made comments about folks without their presence.
Those are the general truths of men, woman and the facets of all humanity throughout the ages and all will continue to do it again; after we've passed on.
I've hurt more of the folks that I care about because they asked a question and i gave them an answer. And all of them have been forewarned by me that if you really don't want the answer, don't ask the question.
Sure, I can go through the "are you sure you want me to answer that, or do you already know the answer, cuz its what you're thinking about yourself as well?" every single time; but you know what? by the 30th to 50th time, it becomes mundane.
if you can't figure out from the first time, after the warning of my honesty that I will tell you the truth at the cost of possibly losing you; and again, if you can't tell that I'm telling you that particular truth because i DO care about you; then perhaps you should keep living in that little land of "i like myself and i'm special" and maybe visit a few AA and meetings...
God isn't about "love love love" he IS love.
there is a difference; and if you look at God's love, he hasn't any compulsion whatsoever in telling anyone, yo look you said this, and did this, and then you thought this, and did and said that; and who exactly do you think you're fooling besides yourself?
Irony of ironies :)
whatever, its all good times.
Every teenage girl wants to be invisible and loved and wanted by every guy; and feel pretty.
every teenage boy wants that girl on the tv set.
everyone wants to think that they're unique and different as they carry on being exactly the same as those in their friendship base; whom are all running around being unique and doing the same things.
Man as a species we really do delude ourselves don't we?
We claim oh no, not me, I'm different; clueless to the fact that yup; no one else has ever said that have they? nope nope, not ever in the history of the planet has anyone ever said "oh i'm different" and my favourite, "God i can't believe they did that, i would never do that" as they do it at that particular moment.
Gossip is what gossip does.
Talking about people behind their backs is something that will come back to bite you in the butt, and for one reason only. You did it.
anyway, that chapter of my life is gone. I don't have to deal with that whole genre of hypocrisy any longer.
So then... I wonder if I'll ever see natasha and olga again? They were fun; russian women are pretty outspoken, and classy. I get a kick out of russian pride and what could be considered arrogance; except that I don't view it as arrogant. Lets face it folks. Europe has been around a lot longer. And all that has happened in europe with the learned capabilities of survival and past historical oppressions and attempts... well, they've earned their pride.
north america hasn't even been around for 500 years, and most historical contributors to society that have all passed by, don't even few 500 years as a drop in the bucket.
babylon; persia, israel, egypt, africa etc etc etc etc
we're the new kids on the block. or rather you're the new kids on the block, cuz i'm not from here, and i'm not north american.
my history and my family can be traced back 5000 years on three different continents and none of that tracing has anything to do with the common man.
so, anyone that is an american and thinks that its all that, should realize that inbreeding was invented by the royals, and that they don't have the corner capital on that requirement for american citizenship.
k, my humour is off colour, and dry. its all good; i get it.
so my next trip will be to the russian federation via amsterdam, cuz well, one should always go home again ;)
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