have you ever wondered...? -
when people write in thier online journals and try to present something that is sublime, while they're struggling internally?
when they attempt to represent a peace which they do not have?
when they claim a relationship with a higher power, and their writing proves that there is none?
when they claim power, and their actions show weakness and fear?
these and a million other things cross my mind, although indeed I'm aware of the answers...
after all, only those whom are saved (which isn't even 1% folks... sorry) can completely express their pain without interest to opinion or judgement, after all... those of us that are saved, can't be judged. Judgement has already been written, and besides, so what if what we're doing is contrary to God's word or nature, cuz then its not judgement anyway, its conviction and joy to the discovery of flaw.
I'd rather have a flaw pointed out by God, by action, or inaction and take joy in the knowledge that He loves me enough to show me, in order for me to take stock and be accountable to Him - forever correcting the inevitable changes which must occur toward my perfection from this imperfect state; then be wary of what another human could possibly say to me, while they're in the midst of their denial.
well whatever. that page is turned. It was red flags all the way through, and I should've just walked on without getting involved with it. So all things being equal, we both did each other. I wanted to feel loved, and she couldn't love. She wanted to pass the time, and she's done her thing, and moved along.
so really, its all a good thing isn't it?
well pappa, i think that this is better now that its over. Mind you, satan keeps putting the same kinds of women and girls in my path... why is that? is he so certain that i'm just going to up and not serve You? After all, how relevant is it to me if she (whomever she may be) is attractive, or bright, or charming or any of that? If she believes in things which I know to be false, claiming them as You, then she is deceived.
If she perpetuates the attributes of humanity towards perceiving a closer understanding with you, isn't she of the masses?
wide is the path to destruction and many be that find it. Narrow is the gate to righteousness and few be there that find it!
for the seeds landed on the dry ground, and the shallow soil, and the path, with only one seed landing on the furtile ground. the seed that lands on the dry ground is burned up by the sun and taken by the birds of the air. the seed on the shallow soil springs up quickly and because it has no root the sun in the sky scorches the life from it. and the seed that lands in the good soil, grows fully and strongly; with deep roots and strong bloom.
of course as well, the seed that lands in the good soil, a sower came and sowed weeds among the good seeds, in order to choke and kill the life and steal the sustainance from it....
there are many many mysteries, without difficult understanding, for after all, so is the nature of life here. These are the methods by which we wage the war for our souls.
:)
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