things I should've learned before... -
i've met a lot of goths lately.
if i knew then what I knew now, i'd have been a lot happier. They're all the same. morbid, whiney, oh woe is me, wah, and pathetic. stoned most of the time; think they're spiritual as they go about being self focused and useless to the world. treat sex the same way they treat drugs. something to do to keep them thinking of what they've screwed up. and they all suck in bed. they just lay there, like dead people. it is amazing to watch people so incredibly detached from their own emotions, and so obsessed with thinking that they've been so hard done by.
grow up. the world isn't here for you; its here. and you have to decide if you are a contributor, or a leech. don't start off being a leech; and think its going to change. it never does. the mindset is already ingrained.
Permalink | posted by James Mendham @ 10:52 p.m. |
:) -
FINALLY!!!!!
good sex :)
k, clearly this isn't a concern to me any longer.
the last girl i was with, i couldn't stay hard, and i though, huh, maybe being over 40 now had something to do with it, however, that obviously isn't the case :)
the woman i was involved with this time, actually wants to be with me, and isn't playing some self focused, eh i'll use whomever i want till i'm bored.
the last girl i was with didn't want to be with me; and she made a point of telling that to anyone that would listen, and of course, she told me she wanted to be with me.
now, i believe, especially now, that it is possible to sense if someone you're being intimate with, actually is attracted, or desires you; and i beleive, (now this is only for those who have some semblence of being intouch with themselves and their own feelings), that this realization, and/or sensing, does affect one's own verility.
and it is a damn HUGE relief to me, that everything still works the way its supposed to, and has historically done.
good to know that it wasn't me, and isn't me. good to know that I could sense that the last girl i was with with full of shit. good to know that i'm spiritually intune enough to know and sense that something is off center, or askew.
good to know..
and damn happy that phew!! it isn't me. and I'm still able to stay hard for days at a time if i'm with someone that is equally as interested in me, as I am in her. :)
man, why did i waste my time with that pathetic little emotionally incapable self focused spoiled little brat. no wonder it didn't work. she spent all of her time lying to herself, how could she have possibly been honest with me :
man, what a friggin relief!!!!!
its amazing being intimate with someone that is a participant, and not a corpse.
Permalink | posted by James Mendham @ 4:01 p.m. |
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